Beardo
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Hello everyone ☺
How does love feels like?
How do you know you love someone? How do you know that you LOVE them, not just admiring them, or like the idea of love, or like their attention? ☺
I think the most love i ever gave was to cats because i love them to pieces...
I often developed strong intense crush feeling to some people but it gets away so fast. Especially once they stopped giving me attention or stop talking to me. Like... "oh.. They are gone? Well cool... I'm over it anyway" but like if they ghost me ofc i will wonder about that a lot, but my feelings will fade so much and so fast as well. i mean it's really not so hard for me to get over it. It's mostly only take weeks maximum for me to get over them completely. i don't think i ever love LOVE someone. I wonder if it's just because of my BPD, or codependency, or maybe i am aromantic...? I mean i still desire a relationship, but like not that much... I mean... Like.. i like the attention, the idea of having a company, being taken care of. But feeling the real "love" doesn't seem very interesting to me. I mean like... It's kind of exhausting? I mean i don't know really... How do you manage to not get bored of someone or how do you manage to love them for years...?
Or maybe it just because i'm not in the right headspace right now... Maybe because the toxic environment i live in at the moment it just ruin all my motivation to try and believe in love.
How does love feels like?
How do you know you love someone? How do you know that you LOVE them, not just admiring them, or like the idea of love, or like their attention? ☺
I think the most love i ever gave was to cats because i love them to pieces...
I often developed strong intense crush feeling to some people but it gets away so fast. Especially once they stopped giving me attention or stop talking to me. Like... "oh.. They are gone? Well cool... I'm over it anyway" but like if they ghost me ofc i will wonder about that a lot, but my feelings will fade so much and so fast as well. i mean it's really not so hard for me to get over it. It's mostly only take weeks maximum for me to get over them completely. i don't think i ever love LOVE someone. I wonder if it's just because of my BPD, or codependency, or maybe i am aromantic...? I mean i still desire a relationship, but like not that much... I mean... Like.. i like the attention, the idea of having a company, being taken care of. But feeling the real "love" doesn't seem very interesting to me. I mean like... It's kind of exhausting? I mean i don't know really... How do you manage to not get bored of someone or how do you manage to love them for years...?
Or maybe it just because i'm not in the right headspace right now... Maybe because the toxic environment i live in at the moment it just ruin all my motivation to try and believe in love.