Jaanuu
Favoured Frenzy
Solace within me.
~Jaanuu
In the middle of this crowd, I find myself feeling alone,
Surrounded by faceless strangers, a sea of unknown.
But deep in my heart, I know I'm not truly by myself,
In the depths of my soul, I have hidden wealth.
This cafe is bustling with different kinds of people,
Each with their own stories, their own life's steeple.
It's overwhelming and terrifying, the noise and the chatter,
I know, it's better than the silence that once mattered.
When did this all begin, this feeling of emptiness within?
When did I start believing I was nothing to anyone?
Or perhaps it began when I realized I was something to me,
All I can feel now is the urge to break free.
Barging out from the lives of others, searching for my own peace.
I get bored easily, I can't hurt them anymore, it's time to cease.
Pushing myself away, fearing attachments, and the pain they bring.
But deep down, I know it's not attachments that sting.
In my mind, a battle rages, a war I cannot win,
I apologize to those who care, for the evil that lies within.
I'm untrustworthy, unreliable, a fool at best,
But still, I search for that elusive peace, for a moment of rest.
Then in the depths of my heart, I find a glimpse of solace,
Sometimes it scratches my soul, other times it gently kisses.
But here I am again, lost in my own thoughts and fears,
Apologizing to those who love me, drowning in my own tears.
I am not alone, not truly, for I have love within,
And in that love, I find peace, a place where I can begin.
So in the middle of this crowd, I stand tall and proud,
For I am not alone, not truly, I am allowed.
To be myself, flawed and imperfect, yet still worthy of love,
In this cafe of faceless strangers, I find peace, rising above.
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So comparing zozo with a cafe, I was think about the crowd I see here, the anonymity I feel, and later, the solace I found within it.
And I'm also taking this as an advantage to apologize, whomever, I pushed away, intentionally or unintentionally. You were a lot to me, you are actually. And to those who does include in that, you're safe from me,
" because, I kinda get bored easily, and I'll dump you, if you haven't get dumped that mean, there's nothing between us. "
~Jaanuu
In the middle of this crowd, I find myself feeling alone,
Surrounded by faceless strangers, a sea of unknown.
But deep in my heart, I know I'm not truly by myself,
In the depths of my soul, I have hidden wealth.
This cafe is bustling with different kinds of people,
Each with their own stories, their own life's steeple.
It's overwhelming and terrifying, the noise and the chatter,
I know, it's better than the silence that once mattered.
When did this all begin, this feeling of emptiness within?
When did I start believing I was nothing to anyone?
Or perhaps it began when I realized I was something to me,
All I can feel now is the urge to break free.
Barging out from the lives of others, searching for my own peace.
I get bored easily, I can't hurt them anymore, it's time to cease.
Pushing myself away, fearing attachments, and the pain they bring.
But deep down, I know it's not attachments that sting.
In my mind, a battle rages, a war I cannot win,
I apologize to those who care, for the evil that lies within.
I'm untrustworthy, unreliable, a fool at best,
But still, I search for that elusive peace, for a moment of rest.
Then in the depths of my heart, I find a glimpse of solace,
Sometimes it scratches my soul, other times it gently kisses.
But here I am again, lost in my own thoughts and fears,
Apologizing to those who love me, drowning in my own tears.
I am not alone, not truly, for I have love within,
And in that love, I find peace, a place where I can begin.
So in the middle of this crowd, I stand tall and proud,
For I am not alone, not truly, I am allowed.
To be myself, flawed and imperfect, yet still worthy of love,
In this cafe of faceless strangers, I find peace, rising above.
_______________________________________________
So comparing zozo with a cafe, I was think about the crowd I see here, the anonymity I feel, and later, the solace I found within it.
And I'm also taking this as an advantage to apologize, whomever, I pushed away, intentionally or unintentionally. You were a lot to me, you are actually. And to those who does include in that, you're safe from me,
" because, I kinda get bored easily, and I'll dump you, if you haven't get dumped that mean, there's nothing between us. "
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I am safe, thank god 
