“how’s your year so far?”
I paused and look at him, took a sip of my matcha while thinking how has it been really for me. Saying its a rollercoaster seems like a pretty expected answer. Meanwhile, its ‘okay’ like making some excuse to avoid talking about it.
“Hmm, its quite a journey. Every year I faced new challenges and overcome all of those things too. But this year is a special one. Because i live.” I paused once more
“Why?” I see your forehead creased. Oh that confusion, then my thought exactly ‘Oh my complication. I chuckled.
“I get to live in the moment. I appreciate slow mornings, waking up for sunrises and excited for the sunsets. Taking pictures of things that brought me joy. Learning new language. Writing song. Writing poetry. Feeding the squirrel that knocks in the backyard for food. Listening to songs. Creating playlists. Other than that, im learning to thaw my frozen heart.”
“—and Appreciate the people that stayed right with through my darkest days.” I stare at your brown eyes, it glistened.
“—especially you. We have known eachother for years now and yet you have stayed. The times I was so lost in the dark, you lend your ears and willingly being my crying shoulder. How can I not appreciate all your sacrifices for me. No words could ever justify how blessed I am for this second chance of life. How much more for you that still chose me despite my unlikeable personality.”
“You are my person. And you weren’t unlikeable. You are adorable and sweet. You were just hurt. Yet you are Healing and im so proud of you. Im glad you chose to stay.”you hushed me. As you grasp my hand and kept our fingers intertwined. I smiled. My heart hurts so good, I adore you. How do I deserve this? I just found my person and im the luckiest. <3
I am unsure whether im worthy
but the way you linger into my mind
feels like were back at twenty twenty
who would have thought
whats lost and gone is not for me
what come and stayed, has healed me
for its not always about how I perceived things
but of how you have treated me, with kindness and dignity.
I speak highly of you
which I normally would not do.
But here I am, I penned for you.
To be loved is magical
But to be understood, otherworldly.
~merci! Mon coeur, jetaime! <3
I paused and look at him, took a sip of my matcha while thinking how has it been really for me. Saying its a rollercoaster seems like a pretty expected answer. Meanwhile, its ‘okay’ like making some excuse to avoid talking about it.
“Hmm, its quite a journey. Every year I faced new challenges and overcome all of those things too. But this year is a special one. Because i live.” I paused once more
“Why?” I see your forehead creased. Oh that confusion, then my thought exactly ‘Oh my complication. I chuckled.
“I get to live in the moment. I appreciate slow mornings, waking up for sunrises and excited for the sunsets. Taking pictures of things that brought me joy. Learning new language. Writing song. Writing poetry. Feeding the squirrel that knocks in the backyard for food. Listening to songs. Creating playlists. Other than that, im learning to thaw my frozen heart.”
“—and Appreciate the people that stayed right with through my darkest days.” I stare at your brown eyes, it glistened.
“—especially you. We have known eachother for years now and yet you have stayed. The times I was so lost in the dark, you lend your ears and willingly being my crying shoulder. How can I not appreciate all your sacrifices for me. No words could ever justify how blessed I am for this second chance of life. How much more for you that still chose me despite my unlikeable personality.”
“You are my person. And you weren’t unlikeable. You are adorable and sweet. You were just hurt. Yet you are Healing and im so proud of you. Im glad you chose to stay.”you hushed me. As you grasp my hand and kept our fingers intertwined. I smiled. My heart hurts so good, I adore you. How do I deserve this? I just found my person and im the luckiest. <3
I am unsure whether im worthy
but the way you linger into my mind
feels like were back at twenty twenty
who would have thought
whats lost and gone is not for me
what come and stayed, has healed me
for its not always about how I perceived things
but of how you have treated me, with kindness and dignity.
I speak highly of you
which I normally would not do.
But here I am, I penned for you.
To be loved is magical
But to be understood, otherworldly.
~merci! Mon coeur, jetaime! <3
