Jaanuu
Favoured Frenzy
"Aadhi?" The voice on my phone echoed, but my mind was elsewhere, lost in a sea of despair. An unsettling heaviness weighed on my heart, and tears began to well up in my eyes like a slow-moving storm. I closed them, trying to compose myself, but the anguish was too much to bear. "Aadhi?" Abhi, his voice called out again, checking if I was still on the line. I responded with a faint, barely audible "Hmm."
"Don't be sad, da, let's go there," he said, trying to comfort me, but the words fell flat. I replied with another "Hmm," my voice cracking under the weight of my emotions. "How..." I started to say, but my voice trailed off, unable to form the words.
"A car crashed into her scooter two days ago. She was in a critical condition at the time, and yesterday night..." the voice began to explain, but I cut him off, unable to bear it. "Hmmm," I whispered, my voice a mere whisper.
"She asked for you," he hardly said, but I had already hung up the call, unable to hear more. I let out a deep, anguished sigh, and tears flowed down my face like a river, carrying all my regrets im it. I glanced at the screen once, Abhi's name, our common friend who had introduced her to me for the first time. Memories of her, flooded my mind - her bright eyes, her gentle words, her radiant smile.
I remembered her saying, 'Don't love me back, don't. I just want to love you in silence.' My heart ached, heavy with regret, wondering what I could have done differently. I cried out loudly, hoping she would hear me, "Appuuu!" But she was nowhere to be found, lost, forever!
Abhi's words echoed in my mind, 'Aadhi, her uncle called me a few minutes back...she's gone.' He sounded depressed, and who wouldn't be? Such a precious soul, who fluttered like a butterfly, fell for someone like me? What a cruel irony!
It was a year ago when we met. She was quiet and reserved at first, but as soon as she understood her feelings for me, she proposed. I wasn't ready for a relationship, and I don't know how many times I drove her away. My ego pushed her away, but lately, I was starting to realize my feelings. Still, my ego held me back, and now she was gone.
Just then, my phone buzzed with a notification. I looked at the screen, and my heart sank. It was a message from our group: "Condolences." Above that, I saw her photo, with the words "Rest in peace Aparna Devdas (23)". I felt a wave of grief wash over me, drowning me in sorrow. I remembered her smile, her laughter, and her eyes. I regretted not being able to express my feelings to her, not being able to tell her how much I cared. My ego had blinded me, and now she was gone, lost, forever.
My phone slipped from my hand, falling to the ground with a 'thud'. I bawled and fell onto my knees, "Appuuuuuuu!" I screamed, my voice hoarse from crying. I felt like I was drowning in my sorrow, unable to breathe, unable to escape the pain of losing.
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* Don't let you ego get in the way of making decisions. *
* Don't realize someone's feelings when it's too late. *
~Aparnah
"Don't be sad, da, let's go there," he said, trying to comfort me, but the words fell flat. I replied with another "Hmm," my voice cracking under the weight of my emotions. "How..." I started to say, but my voice trailed off, unable to form the words.
"A car crashed into her scooter two days ago. She was in a critical condition at the time, and yesterday night..." the voice began to explain, but I cut him off, unable to bear it. "Hmmm," I whispered, my voice a mere whisper.
"She asked for you," he hardly said, but I had already hung up the call, unable to hear more. I let out a deep, anguished sigh, and tears flowed down my face like a river, carrying all my regrets im it. I glanced at the screen once, Abhi's name, our common friend who had introduced her to me for the first time. Memories of her, flooded my mind - her bright eyes, her gentle words, her radiant smile.
I remembered her saying, 'Don't love me back, don't. I just want to love you in silence.' My heart ached, heavy with regret, wondering what I could have done differently. I cried out loudly, hoping she would hear me, "Appuuu!" But she was nowhere to be found, lost, forever!
Abhi's words echoed in my mind, 'Aadhi, her uncle called me a few minutes back...she's gone.' He sounded depressed, and who wouldn't be? Such a precious soul, who fluttered like a butterfly, fell for someone like me? What a cruel irony!
It was a year ago when we met. She was quiet and reserved at first, but as soon as she understood her feelings for me, she proposed. I wasn't ready for a relationship, and I don't know how many times I drove her away. My ego pushed her away, but lately, I was starting to realize my feelings. Still, my ego held me back, and now she was gone.
Just then, my phone buzzed with a notification. I looked at the screen, and my heart sank. It was a message from our group: "Condolences." Above that, I saw her photo, with the words "Rest in peace Aparna Devdas (23)". I felt a wave of grief wash over me, drowning me in sorrow. I remembered her smile, her laughter, and her eyes. I regretted not being able to express my feelings to her, not being able to tell her how much I cared. My ego had blinded me, and now she was gone, lost, forever.
My phone slipped from my hand, falling to the ground with a 'thud'. I bawled and fell onto my knees, "Appuuuuuuu!" I screamed, my voice hoarse from crying. I felt like I was drowning in my sorrow, unable to breathe, unable to escape the pain of losing.
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* Don't let you ego get in the way of making decisions. *
* Don't realize someone's feelings when it's too late. *
~Aparnah
